from the poem "Love after Love"

my mother's hina matsuri display

today is march 3rd - hina matsuri - when the japanese people pray for the happiness and healthy growth of girls.

i don't really know much about the tradition, other than my mother would bring out her dolls each year and offer food. sometimes she would dress my sister or i in a kimono. we may have sung a few songs. she would sometimes take pictures to mark the occasion. and just as soon as she would put them out, the display of dolls would be gone, as if they were never there in the first place.

this year, she put them out early in February.

"why do you have them out so early this year?" i asked.

"because, i'm wishing that you'll be married soon," she says. "if i put them out earlier, i thought it might bring you better luck."

huh?

growing up, what my mother failed to tell me is the old superstition - if families don't put the dolls away by march 4th, their daughters will have difficulty finding husbands or would be late to marry. i suppose i should have taken more interest in my cultural traditions and customs but as a young girl, i had no connection to these dolls, the festival or their significance. fancy figurines of the emperor and empress, these dolls were not play dolls...i assumed they were just displays that one put out like hallowe'en or christmas decorations. of course, in japan, the hina matsuri has taken on a whole holiday marketing campaign to sell the "must-have" items for the celebration.

i had no idea my mother put so much weight on the superstitions.  if i had been more aware of the significance of the hina matsuri, would i have had a different view of myself as a girl growing up? does this tradition have an impact on how men value and treat girls?

i ask this last question because today the media is abuzz about the documentary India's Daughter by leslee udwin, which will be aired globally on march 8th to coincide with international woman's day. udwin journey's to india after the horrific gang rape of a young woman on december 16, 2012. she interviews the rapists and their lawyers to examine their values and mindset and she uncover where the true problem lies:

"these offences against women and girls are part of the story, but the full story starts with a girl not being as welcome as a boy, from birth...if a girl is accorded no value, if a girl is worthless than a boy, then it stands to reason there will be men who believe they can do what they like with them."

perhaps it's time india adopts a form of hina matsuri and accord to their daughters equal happiness and healthy growth as their sons, with men committed to ensuring that this outcome is honoured and achieved.

and on that note... i don't anticipate or expect marriage in 2015 - my mother's wish will be left unfilled again this year. sorry mom. i have no desire to set myself with those kinds of expectations - i don't feel that's how one achieves happiness. but what i can do for myself today is celebrate and honour my own personal journey to be happy and healthy. i chose to celebrate the girl that i was, all the potential she was born with and to continue to uncover the woman she is becoming...all the while celebrating the girl/woman she is today.

sending out the same hope and prayer for all young girls elsewhere as well.

kumpai!