I feel like I'm unraveling and so I'm doing what I do best...chasing numbness. When things got overwhelming, I used to hunker down and immerse myself in work, letting the hours of the day disappear into each other. I would gorge myself in food without tasting anything. I would pick up my one evil vice (smoking cigarettes) for that momentary weightless buzz....
Not a full week passed before the social media and news stratosphere exploded with the next sensational item. From attacks on our Canadian soldiers and symbols to the now infamous essay by a former CBC host and the subsequent media blitz, it's been a very difficult week. My emotions are on edge and I wish nothing more than to crawl into my little...
I started writing this blog post a few days ago to explore some anxieties I was experiencing, but they all seem so mute in light of this past week's events - two soldiers murdered, the Parliament breached, the suspect shot dead by the Sergeant-in-Arms, and buildings in lockdown. It was like an episode of 24, only it wasn't Keifer Sutherland in the camera frame with special effects and...
I'm no athlete. I'm uncoordinated, my reflexes are slow. And team sports, I'm certainly no champion player. Regardless, I signed up to participate in a Sports League. A friend encouraged me to sign up, as did my counsellor - it offers opportunities to meet new people and a chance to step outside of my comfort zone. Each week, before the game, I am...
My fingers are poised over the keyboard. My eyes closed and I'm simply listening...waiting...being... I'm waiting for that source of inspiration to hit....but all I hear are the lyrics to John Legend's song "All of me", mixed with a bit of Hoobastank's "The Reason", my original anthem song. My sessions with my counsellor are nearing an end...the ending of a chapter. As in...
It's been a fairly dreary, wet and cold summer, but now that we've reached the last week of August, Summer has finally perked up and the hot humid days and nights have returned, drinking in every last minute of what time remains of Summer. I don't blame Summer - I'm doing the same thing. I've been reflecting on all the adventures I've enjoyed...
I'm struggling with this blog today. But despite how I feel, I'm tackling the task of writing and continuing my reflection on Commitment. When my friend Jason Billows, leadership and life coach, explored the results of my Wheel of Life Assessment, I remember saying how I felt my lack of success in relationships was due to my inability to commit. But Jason didn't see it that way,...
I've been rather agitated these past few days, which has triggered an inner battle of flight and fight. I know I've overcome a number of things over the past few months, and I'm proud of the results achieved. I've joined weight watchers. I've worked on creating a healthier approach to food and understanding that I am accountable with every food choice I make....
He had a fantasy. He described in detail what he wanted...what he would do. I told him no. He kept pushing his fantasy. And I pushed back - No! He wanted his own key so that he could come and go as he pleased. I said no. He had come up to my door hoping that I had left it unlocked. The red...
Spring, It's been a long winter and I haven't looked forward to your arrival with this much anticipation in years. Winter looked as if it would stay, and yet, you've arrived with such grace and charm that your fashionably late entrance is all but forgiven and forgotten. Ah yes, the change is nothing short of refreshing. Needless to say, during old man winter's...
It's cold outside. Bitterly cold. Any-moisture-in-your-nose-freezes-when-you-breathe-in kind of cold. Everything stands still or is slow moving...only the warm air out of the furnace vent blows out effortlessly. I love the view outside - everything looks beautiful and magical - but one step outside and the cold saps all my energy and I grow numb. I hit the pause button on my journey for...
